We don't have a baby yet. :-( Our birth mother didn't show up for her scheduled c-section. We've talked to our social worker (R.) and it appears she was too scarred to go. She was scared of the surgery, the pain, being alone, the adoption. R. tried his best to reassure us, but there are no guarantees. The c-section has been rescheduled for tomorrow, but we don't know yet what time it will take place.
We're doing ok. We got the call while we where at Target. We had decided to do a little shopping to keep ourselves busy. The phone rang while we were in the check out line. I did my best to stay strong, but by the end of the call I had tears running down my cheeks. Poor Pierre... I didn't think of telling him what was going on while I was on the phone. He thought she had died. :-( I felt even worse when he said that. Now I know - update Pierre before getting details! I had a mini meltdown at Target, Pierre held me, we took a deep breath and moved on. Now we can only focus on the positive and hope for the best
It's so difficult not being in control... not knowing what's going on in our birth mother's head... is she thinking of backing out or is it just the actual surgery she's scared of? Is this going to end up being just an expensive vacation to Florida or are we going to leave with our daughter. I can't imagine what she's going through. To be scarred and alone... my heart aches for our birth mother too.
So that's what's happening now. I will do my best to keep you updated.
So, if you're the religious type, please say a prayer for us... or if you are a spiritual person send us all your positive vibes and finally, if you're an atheist like my dear husband, please have a beer for us. :-)
We're doing ok. We got the call while we where at Target. We had decided to do a little shopping to keep ourselves busy. The phone rang while we were in the check out line. I did my best to stay strong, but by the end of the call I had tears running down my cheeks. Poor Pierre... I didn't think of telling him what was going on while I was on the phone. He thought she had died. :-( I felt even worse when he said that. Now I know - update Pierre before getting details! I had a mini meltdown at Target, Pierre held me, we took a deep breath and moved on. Now we can only focus on the positive and hope for the best
It's so difficult not being in control... not knowing what's going on in our birth mother's head... is she thinking of backing out or is it just the actual surgery she's scared of? Is this going to end up being just an expensive vacation to Florida or are we going to leave with our daughter. I can't imagine what she's going through. To be scarred and alone... my heart aches for our birth mother too.
So that's what's happening now. I will do my best to keep you updated.
So, if you're the religious type, please say a prayer for us... or if you are a spiritual person send us all your positive vibes and finally, if you're an atheist like my dear husband, please have a beer for us. :-)